Home Sick

So I never thought that you could be home sick while at home. Well come to find out it is possible. When the other half of you is gone you always feel alone. No matter how many people are around you. These last two weeks have been hard. I haven't been sleeping very well and for those of you who know me, know I can sleep any where any time. All you have to do is let me close my eyes for a few minutes and I am gone to the world. Even though I had help all last week and visitors, and of course my babies, I still felt empty. I still caught my self saying this is hard, I miss my honey, I want him to come home. Well this week is the last week he comes home on Sunday, I am counting down the days. Its just a feeling of relief that is coming over me know that he will be home in less then a week.

I don't understand how others (Army wife's, and those whose husbands travel) can do this. It has to be the most stressed time of their lives. Although these women most likely get into routines that once the spouse comes home they get thrown for a loop. But back to my point, having your best friend that you spend every night next to and every morning waking up to, and then having them not there is heart breaking and depressing.

Every email becomes more and more important. You want to know everything what they ate, what they saw, when they went to the bathroom (not what they did in there though). And every email that you write to them you find your self just going on about nothing. Little things that you never would have mentioned before.

But anyway I am sure that you get the picture. I am home sick because I miss my honey. But he will be home soon. I can't wait.

Oh by the way, started doing Pilate's on a regular basis, and I can fit in size 12 but yet I weigh more. Hmmmm sucky.