Wednesday, December 12, 2007

What I want to be

I read Jill's blog and I agree with her. I wish that I could be one of those mothers who have everything together. One who can wakes up at 5am start laundry get breakfast ready get the kids up and just be perfect. But women are lazy today.

Women today care more about themselves and taking care of their needs then taking care of others. So breakfast has become cold cereal, instead of bacon and eggs. Lunch is now PB&J instead of a turkey sandwich with lettuce, tomatoes, and all the fixings. Dinner is now just a one course meal or fast food. Something not even that, sometimes its just a bowl of cold cereal.

I have days where I will get the urge to be the perfect wife and mother. Where I will have the house clean and I will make Breakfast, Lunch, and dinner. But most of the time it is more like what is the least amount of things that I can do. As much as I hate to admit this, I am not the one mother who gets to Win the Mother of the Year Award.(in Allison's words)

I do wish that I had more energy so that I could get more things done around the house. I wish that my house was one that you could go in with a white glove and come back out with it as white as it was when you went in. But if you did that in my house its more likely that it would come out gray.

I want to be a good mother and I want to be a good wife. I want to have dinner on the table and have it be a balanced dinner with salad, vegetables, bread, rice, and a meat. I want to not be the mom that relies on the box dinners. Like macaroni and cheese.

One day I will be better, One day My house will be clean and one day I will have a good dinner on the table but I am afraid it wont be for a while. I am just lucky that I have a great family who loves me for who I am.

2 loving remarks:

Allison @ Allie Browns Layouts said...
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Allison @ Allie Browns Layouts said...

(I deleted that last post because I totally biffed it).

Amen girlfriend. I'm right with you. I love my family and I do wish that I could be that perfect mother with three meals and everything spotless and ready when you need it. I call myself a "lazy clean freak" because a mess stresses me out, but I get so overwhelmed by my kids needs that the household needs get pushed aside. Also, I do want to be there for my kids more. I've heard of some mothers getting so tied up in their household chores that their poor children suffer from it. My children, at this age, are NOT going to remember if the house was ever spotless or messy. They'll only remember the good times and the love that was felt to them. And I have to remember that. So I do have to wait to finish up some big chores until after the kids are in bed. Oh well, at least they know that I love them and that I had spent time with them that day.

Didn't I say that we should start the "Not Winning Mother of the Year" club? I think we should. I get a laugh out of things that we talk about that gets us farther from winning that "award". Like:
-Didn't bathe our kids today.
-Didn't mop the floor though it needs it because child #1 spilt milk all over it (instead just wiped it up with a towel)
-Didn't vacuum the cookie crumbs today because tomorrow they're going to get more crumbs on the carpet and so I'll just worry about it then.
-Didn't clean the toilet when child #2 peed all over the seat (instead just wiped it with a large wad of tissues so we wouldn't get it on our hands).

And the list goes on. It's not that we completely give up on our regular duties, but sometimes there are things that our kids'll do that'll make the extra cleaning up a little overwhelming for us and so we do what we can now and will finish it when we have a chance to breathe (like when my kids are in bed).

I know you and Jill are great moms who do their best. And your children know it too. And look at them! They're happy kids! That's all that matters.

So that pep talk was more for me than for either of you... :D